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no title for this new post... saja jer.. nk emo... juz teringat kata2 yg selalu ad dlm ceramah " selalu muhasabah diri or 4 me the exact meaning is analyze myself..." lately sjak dh tak keje i got new interest playing Sudoku, kakuro and others maths puzzles.. actually thats me.. suka bnda yg kna fikir scara kritikal..since got this times and chance try to use it.. in d same time masa main bnda ni emosi tk brapa nk stabil sebb incident yg tk bleh nk lupa tu... so as long playing the puzzle i find out my self . i 'm one of d person yg scared to take risk... sbb once nk ltak nombor2 dlm kotak tu smpai satu limit yg stuck i still tk brani nk try ltak sebarang no... so juz let it blanks and take rest sampai as idea yg confident btul walaupun atlast its wrong,,, so conclusion somehow in certain cases i takut nk take challenge sebab takut fail.....thats me.. So thats the same things happen in my real life especially in relationships , takut nk kawan dan pcaya dgn kawan sendiri since takut one time org2 ni akan mengkhianati kita..(as its happened to me be4) dn kadg2 bila bkawan rasanyer tk smua kawan yg ikhlas nk bkawan ad yg bkawan untuk interest sendiri ad motif sendiri... so once their mission completed or failed then they will turn away from me.. ITS THAT WHAT WE CALL FRENZ??? i hve try to fade away this issues be4 and make frenz hope i can build a relation make real friends ( since frenz supposely has very nice and best meaning to person).. but at last the same things happens when i think i've makes good frenz but at last i realized ,they have their own mission makes me as frenz its shown when i seems not shows any interest in their mission they turn away from me...... but this time i dont know to refer d person as they or he/she, may be because cause of a person all of them turn away from me.. or may be all of they are same.....
So now what else can I hope from d relation... but i will try to build the Positive part in me i must dare to take risks and challenges in life eventhough not in d relations but maybe in carier.. Hope so..