bengang

seriously bengang.. may be i'm not d person who loves to insult or to condemned people using the internet tools as medium.. ok FB.. since once i've experienced it... feels so tragic n sad n mad n whateva feeling..juz not even a month we know each other she has done thiz kind of thing to me.. juz imagine..without knowing what ur fault.. suddenly u read a post feed that giler2 condemned u then got another peoples that joined to KUTUK.... seriously what u feels??? when the one that lives in d same house that shares the food together can do thiz kind of crazy thing... juz imagine when u read the post that said "the person that i newly met... n the younger " so who else.. may be that prediction of mine juz come from the -ves emo... but till now all d words still lingering on my mind... juz try to ignore may be d person was not me, but on d noon after everybody has show s sympathy to d writer with d continuation of the bad words... i was blocked from seeing her post feed.. so any doubt to confirm i'm the person has been condemned by people around her.. without knowing my fault or mistakes... seriously till now its hard for me to be purely positive with her.. maybe i'm the one who bears grudge????

so here i wanna to state please be matured and more responsibility towards ur writes or emo expression via internet such FB...maybe its looks a simple things when using it as tools to express ur feels n emo but u know that u may hurts other or maybe ur point to make other feels hurt and also hurts by others in other words to show that ur a victim of the situation.. and also for d commentators make sure u know ur comments its about the things that u really know.. and make sure dont judge by one side.. if u don't know the real situation avoids from commenting... since i holds to d saying state
" MATA PENA LEBIH TAJAM DARI MATA PEDANG"

boring..

damn bored... theme that i choose for the few pass day....seriously going to work wout motivation.. there is nothing to do... juz an awkward situation i've feel during my working life.. if previously every day i hope that the pc are broke down but now i really dont know what to do if there is no PC or mr lappy on my desk... imagine what i gonna to do.. terrified n scary imagination ha???huuhuhuhu..suddenly i feels to update thiz blog because there is a solution ushered by mak uda to reduce my boring level.. she said blogging?? then i remember that i have ablog.. so what i'm doing now.. but think to stop... got to go.. there is students letters to type.. bye...my dear bloggy...

emo...

if people said its hard to see me crying seriously i'm crying right now....juz wanna share suddenly i feel so sad n lost.. i really miss AYAH.. seriously adia rindu sangt dekat ayah.. as time goes by its hard for me to accept d fact that he was not arround any more.. he not here seeing what i'm doing right now.. still i can't believe.. its really hard for me to accept d fact.. even he left us for 5 years.. sometimes i thought he sitting near to me.. he d one who make a call answer d phone.. woke me up... even though now i'm near to Penang will make me feel so sad and my memories toward him growing enormously.. till when i drove back to melaka previously i imagined how d van jenazah bring him back to us... seriously i donno what i feel.. maybe this post its juz looking i'm so emo.. but d true is i reallly miss ayah.... adia rindu sangt kat ayah.. i never told anybody be4 this i got a dream but i dont think its a dream ifeel is so real.. when i heard he called me to wake up for subuh prayer...he touch my forehead and said" adia bangun sembahyang" seriously in d dawn during prayer i can;t keep my tears running down.... sometimes i feel my forehead still warm for his last kiss during i broke my leg when he soothing me down make me feel better with my broken leg( cried because my leg kna simen)..

what else can i say.. adia rindu sangat kat ayah.........

3 MgGu di IpOH...

ok since it was along time blog has been updated...so now i'm going to update it.... this lately 3 weeks i'm still feeling i'm dreaming... imagine being a lecturer or a teacher tk pnah ad dlm my list wanna be... tpi realiti nyer dh 3 mggu adia got d title... jd lecturer kat politeknik in electronic engineering... klaka giler... so sometimes ad jgak mengelakkan diri sendiri...may be ini yg dikatakan takdir.. wlau macamana kita elakkan sekali pun tpi bila dh ditakdirkn kita tk bleh nk elak.. so juz accept dgan redha dan berusaha jadikan perkara ni suatu ibadah...thats what i'm doing right now.. so far kerja ni tak de la pressure compared to m "previous job...mungkin doa dh terjawab sebb selalu amalka doa memohon sesuatu yang terbaik untuk diri kita dunia dn akhirat...
juz imagine sampai skarg still ad student ingt adia student.. even makcik cafe pn tk pcaya... plik ke muka adia jd lecturer.. tk sama ke macm lecturer lain...

dlam mggu yg berlalu ni ad moment2 yg mmg best untuk disave to my memory:
- cik ni sempoi la..
- kalau cik handle clazz mesti best...
-cik ajar faham 100% kalau test confirm lulus..
-cik tukar la dgan lecture kita org ( byak cantik muka korg.. tpi ap yg best ni ad la klaz programming dulu bnci programming tapi skarg ajar programmg.. huhuuhuhuhuhu..)
- masa handle practical test senua student keep calling me checking their circuit.... sampai main lecturer complaint budak2 ni pasal tk pgill2....

antara yg tak best
- w660i (my phone) cik ingt kan sya pd knangan silam...
- cik kan lecturer so cik la ajar kitaorg... (wekkk.... cmtu baik suruh adia buat jer...)

so what do i wish now ... hope this will be the great start in my career route.. n wish to further study as soon as possible...( make all my missions complete)...
and semoga di takdirkan oleh-Nya yang terbaik untuk diriku agamaku dunia n akhirat,.... amin... ok... see when d owner of this Blog got d mood to updating d blog... thatsz me a person that controlled by mood.... hu huuhu

PiCtuRE of My GRaduAtIoN....

Some of great moment in my lifes.. anyway thanks ayah for the base that u build 4 me.. without the strong base maybe i wont be able to achieve thiz moment and for ibu thankz a lot to be a great supporters in my life till now.. u r my love...

ConVocation UMP 2009~3rd oct

waa... akhirnyer stelah 4 taun berhempas pulas dkat uMP in electronic eng akhirnya grad jugak.. tpi ap bleh buat 2nd class holder......... tu la sruh blja btul2 tk mau... tu yg mampu..

actually masa convo byak sedih dr happy... since bla time convo ayah tk de.. byangkan org yg spatutnyer masuk to watch me during the graduation is not arround.. sedih giler.... pastu sbab tk kje there is no money for me to spend with my family especially my ibu.. my dearest ibu.. ibu i need to thankz u alot.. there is nothing that i can repay u... u always be on my side.... so as ti me goes by u still my dearest person..

then as usual got a bouquet from ibu n aflower from uni n wawa sent by daus... thankz all... not 4gotten that is a dress from a friend( ex pres 4/508) sent by courier... huuuhuhuuhu.. tk de lagi dlam sejarah hidup dpat adiah baju....anyway thankz.... so after grad kalau tak keje dgan rasminyer == penganggur.. really hate that name.. insya ALLAh it wont be long...

penNAtian SatU peNYeKsaAn...

semalam mimpi klakar sangat.. huhuuhuuu...mimpi raja pakai serba kuning then excited giler nk tangkap gambar dgn family.. klakar.. than bla blang dgn ibu konon2 nk dpt great news.. huhuuuhuu.. hope so!!
regarding to the title penantian satu penyiksaan, be4 thiz i had tell that i really had waiting.. so ap yg dpat dikatakan penantian satu penyiksaan. Penantian yg tak de kepastian.. at the end mgkin happy or sad??? Thiz all d matters we needs to face when dealing with goverment institution, too much birokrasi, toomuch procedures........ but utk kata menyesal amik biasiswa ni masa study tk spatutnyer ad sbb as muslim kna redha dgn kputusan yg dh buat.. logiknyer kalau nk menyesal pn ap yg bleh buat time can't turn back..... so pa yg spatutnyer buat sabar n redha dgan ap decission yg di ambil... Ap bleh buat bdoa dgn YG ESA di permudahkan segala urusan....